At 40 I’m Starting My Career Over and I’m Terrified.

If you’re thinking of changing direction maybe you can relate

Sam Dixon Brown
4 min readOct 4, 2022
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I feel like a hypocrite.

A couple of months ago I hosted a workshop at a Digital Nomad conference to help people pivot their careers in a new direction. As I have already had 5 different careers, this is a subject that is well within my wheelhouse.

I focused on overcoming our fears about starting something new, and how many of our fears are ungrounded, or can at least be mitigated. Everyone left the session feeling motivated and confident about taking their career in a new direction.

Except me.

I felt like a fraud because I’m starting a new career and I’m terrified.

It wasn’t meant to be like this

I thought I was supposed to be a writer.

But almost a year ago I abruptly went from posting several times a week on Medium (my main source of income at the time) to zilch. I suddenly felt like I’d said everything I had to say. Maybe I just needed a break to refocus. But the desire to write didn’t come back and I haven’t clicked that write a story button once since then.